Dreading Christmas

Every year I'm filled with apprehension as Christmas approaches. I know I've dedicated a post to it two years ago, now again the same fears are grinding me. Living in Norway, exposed to all this consumer obsessed advertising about buying Christmas presents, decorating your house, baking Christmas cakes... I just get worried. Besides the fact that phrases like "Christmas spirit" are lost on me. I don't know what it feels like. As to decorating, I just think more work. As to cakes, I really like baking but with a one year old baby, it can be difficult. As to presents, they cost money, and I'm currently without a job. Stay at home mum temporarily. As Christmas approaches I feel depression sinking in. It is not just thinking about all those things that are expected at Christmas. It's the lack of light. I dream about purple red sunsets back home in Croatia. Then for the millionth time I rethink my choices about moving to Norway. But that's another post.